what i’m looking for in a man:
- will lend me his hoodies
- good sense of humor
- is a cutie patootie
- will slay my enemies in a brutal display of violence and paint his face with their blood
- good taste in music
You’re looking for Dean Winchester
So I just finished watching the last episode of season four (I started this show like three weeks ago, I’ve been marathoning like crazy which is interesting when I have to get the dvds from blockbuster and I don’t have a car and it’s still snowing in Alaska despite it being April) and I didn’t think there was any way I would become one of those people up in the middle of the night crying and writing messages to my friends in all caps about this gosh darned show but good lord it’s absolutely insane! Even the stuff I was expecting is heartbreaking, and then the little things… like messing up Dean’s voicemail message. @_@ Now I know why people on here say vague things like “I can’t even” because really… what else is there to say?
Here’s me, yelling at my friend even though he is asleep while I watch these last episodes.
”I DON’T KNOW WHY EVERYONE LIKES CASTIEL SO DAMN MUCH I WANT TO SHOOT HIM IN THE FACE AND SINCE WHEN DID I BECOME A SAMGIRL WITHOUT NOTICING OMG I HATE THIS SHOW WHY AM I CRYING JFC
I AM SO SERIOUS. NOW I KNOW WHY EVERYONE IN THIS FANDOM TALKS IN ALL CAPS ALL THE TIME
like every few episodes it’s cheesy and cutesy and funny just to make up for the fact that it’s SYSTEMATICALLY BREAKING YOUR HEART INTO ITTY BITTY PIECES the rest of the time
SO MUCH PAIN
I don’t know if I can handle fifteen more minutes of this crap
WHAT THE EVER LOVING HOLY LORD MOTHER OF GOD AND THE ANGELS OH MY GOODNESS I HATE THIS SHOW SO MUCH”
And then the episode ended and Ruby was bad and Dean was right and Angel light was spilling everywhere and I didn’t have anything else to say to him except how glad I am that I didn’t try to watch these seasons while it was on tv because if I had to wait a whole off season for the next episode instead of just praying whoever else is renting the dvds has brought the next season back when I go tomorrow, I would be going out of my ever-loving mind.
Also when I read this post tomorrow I will remember why I don’t blog and probably delete it out of shame, but for one second I needed to feel like I was part of this fandom community (besides as a creepy wallflower sort) because good lord it hurts so good.